I did not know why or how but somewhere deep inside I felt my world shift. It was as though God decided to create a perfect blue sky with a warm breeze insisting that everyone stop, enjoy and soak in the miracle that surrounds us. I sat on my deck in awe of the beauty and simple delights right in front of me.
It hit me then and my shoulders began to sag as I realized that I had been unaware of the beauty steps from my own back door. For far too long something was holding my happiness back. I had been going through the motions living in an emotional bubble protected by my inability to bear my heart to the masses. The beauty was having a strange yet addicting effect slowly drawing me in from the cold.
Life had been passing me by and I was merely being a spectator where matters of the heart were concerned. My daily life was rock solid. I had a great son and my dream job. Beyond that I was in a perpetual cycle of leftover grief and fear.
