Sky (but he had someone else.) Doctor Z thinks I have panic attacks because I don’t express myself. Like I’m repressing how I really feel, and all this repression triggers anxiety. Blah blah blah. To take it out of therapy-speak, Doctor Z thinks I’m lying way too much of the time. She thinks I lie to my parents. She thinks I lied to Jackson. She thinks I lie to myself, mainly. Not about truths or facts. About feelings. And all that lying makes me not be able to breathe, because the horror that’s inside me pretty much has to express itself somehow, so it starts my heart up like a jack-hammer and turns off my lungs. I never thought of myself as someone who lies at all. Actually, I think I’m pretty truthful. But maybe she was right. “How can I be honest with anyone when everyone is lying to me?” I said to Doctor Z. “Who’s lying to you?” “Jackson.” “Who else?” “Kim.” “Who else?” I felt like there were hundreds of people. But I couldn’t think of anyone.
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