Mum had returned to religion, then, after I left. Maybe she thought God was the only being out there who understood her, the only one who would give the answers she sought. I mean, she was the type who would claim to hear God's words in her mind when really they were her own. She'd manipulate what He said to suit her own needs. Then again, she'd mentioned guilt, among other things, so maybe she had seen the light after all, realised that although I wasn't the kid she'd always wanted I was still her kid. Doesn't excuse her behaviour toward me, the way she treated me, but shit, I can't keep chasing different scenarios around in my head to come up with answers. I just need to move on. She's gone, I can't talk to her about how she felt at the end, and whatever I would have asked her will just have to wait until I die—if there is such a thing as the afterlife, that is.Her funeral comes to mind. Has it been taken care of already? There's only me left, so it stands to reason I'll have to sort something out.
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